Grey’s Anatomy’s latest episode is the most emotional so far since episode 11, at least for me. When I saw Derek again, though I kinda felt he’s gonna appear, I couldn’t help but cry. At ikaw sana yung una kong gustong kausapin about it. I wanted to talk to you. But I remembered na hindi pala pwede. Hindi na pwede. So I cried to myself instead. I guess, things will never be really the same ever again.

I just realized - I have been unfair to you all this time. gusto ko kasi maging okay na tayo, gusto ko maging friends ulit tayo, gusto ko gaya ulit tayo ng dati. But that would be very much favorable only to me. I have not considered you and what you’d feel. Of course hindi okay yun sa'yo. Im so insensitive as fuck! Kaya nga siguro you don’t deserve me. You deserve someone better talaga. I am not worthy of you. Im sorry. Siguro, kung ayaw mo akong maging kaibigan ulit or kahit acquaintance, hindi kita masisisi. I would understand. Basta ang alam ko ngayon, gusto ko lang maging happy ka. Kahit hindi na ako part ng happiness na yon.